WOW I haven't been on in forever........ I don't think anyone I know even reads this

Life can be tough!

I guess sometimes life is just tough. I'm really trying to lean on God. It can feel overwhelming too. I'm just trying to take it one day at a time. I miss friends back home. I miss Kevin a lot. I'm totally in love with him. I mean like I really do love and can see myself spending the rest of my life with him.
I have so much that I need to do, it doesn't feel like there is enough time to do it all. I guess though when life throws you ball ball your suppose to hit a home run.

I'm so sick and tired of math and I'm so sick and tired of being tired. Like I'm never going to use precalculus in my job. Like i mean how crazy are people going to think I am if im like ummmm let me see i need to find the slope and angle of your leg to see if it is broken. Ummmmm NO NO NO!!! Like what kin of idiot would do that. No they have a compound fracture you start the EAP right away you dont do some math. Plus, if you can't like figure out that you use this many rolls a day of tape and times that by how many days you are open to find out how many rolls you need. Then you probably shouldn't be in college. Really, people come on. I can't believe that I'm paying to torture myself. I MEAN IM PAYING FOR ALL THIS TORTURE MYSELF!!! Maybe i should just work at subway the rest of my life! Thats what i will do. I'll be a sandwhich artist. LOL! I will be ok. Just like doing math like 5 hours a day or more is kind of killing me and i have a math test which I do not feel prepared for at all. Ok well I really should clean up my room, put my laundry away, finish my math homework, study for math, and do some devotions. By the way I really really miss kevin and I can't wait to see him. So excited!

GOD IS AMAZING!!!

I can't believe how many of my prayers have been answered this week! God is so amazing, I seriously don't know what I would do with my life if it wasnt' for God. He is my rock and I can lean on him. He knows what he is doing we just have to believe in Him and trust Him. My faith has grown so much in the past month its ridculous. I've been reading the bible in a year and God has taught me so much already. I have a feeling that this year might be really hard in some ways , but its going to be really good for me in other ways. If you don't have a relationship with God or not a strong one I would encourage you to seek God. Really, I'm telling you from experience that there is no way that I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for God. No lifes not perfect cause we would be in heaven if that was the case, but with God you can learn from them experiences and He will carry you through the hard times. All you need is a little faith. No you can't see Him, its really about faith. It's not scary at all. I promise. It's not a pain to be a Christian, its a relief. I know that God cares and loves me and that I will be ok. I have this peace and I'm I don't have to worry(when i complety trust Him). Life will still have its rough times, but somehow God makes sure you get though them. Remember everything happens for a reason, and sometimes you just have to look for the good no matter how bad it is.

Why do we forget?

SO why do we have a tendency to forget about God. Why do we forget how amazing He is? God is the only reason we are here, so we should be praising him. All of our laughs and fun times are because of Him. He perfect and He only wants the best for us, so why don't we give him total control. He does know everything. Count your blessings too, I'm sure you will be surprised at how many you have.

Only one more final!

So I guess that my first semester is almost over at college. I've learned a lot about myself. I've realized that it's better to deal with things instead of burrying them. Lying to yourself doesn't help anything. Listen to you gut cause its the holy spirit. If you have to argue with yourself you probably shouldn't do it. God will always be there for you, but you have to reach out. Don't worry, cause it only makes things worse. If you give everything your all an you give it 100% of your effort you can never be mad at yourself. Sometimes are prayers are answered years later or they are given a no. Learn from your regrets. NEVER EVER BE AFRAID TO SAY NO!!!! Your life goes better when God is your number one.

That's what I've learned in college so far. I know there is much more I could write. Maybe ill have to post another. Enjoy life its short. Have fun and love everyone!

My first college all nighter!

ok so it wasn't suppose to happen but I stayed up all night working on my english final. Crazy and I have an asl final today which I dont feel like i've studied enough. so good luck to myself. We will see waht happens. i think i did well on my english portfolio so hopefully. well ive got to go study and eat some breakfast.